Chaos

All this chaos inside

If it all comes loose, your careful construction

Is that what you’re afraid of? Is that what you’re afraid of?

Orphan parts of you, they face you like strangers

Is that what you’re afraid of? Is that what you’re afraid of?

If you try to find the answers, your fear is safe with me

Don’t take me for a mirror, when I hold you close to me

'Cuz we are holding a chaos inside, a chaos inside

A chaos inside, a chaos inside

For me to see your truth, why still a danger?

Is that what you’re afraid of? Is that what you’re afraid of?

Unbridled sexuality, just thirst and hunger

Is that what you’re afraid of? Is that what you’re afraid of?

 

If you try to find the answers, your fear is safe with me

Don’t take me for a mirror, when I hold you close to me

'Cuz we are holding a chaos inside, a chaos inside

A chaos inside, a chaos inside

Oceanman​

 

There’s a man, his heart’s so blue, it fills the ocean through and through
When he reaches out to me, a little light flashes on his head
What you don’t see, is a giant glow that burns beneath, deep, deep inside

This man, his beard’s so long that you wonder for how long
Mama told me, this ocean’s made of, his silvery tears that he cried
If you don’t believe me, you should spread your arms and dive, dive tonight

What you’ll find, are familiar people
They walk in water, like they were in space
You want to talk to them but you’ve lost your voice
You cannot touch them because you’re paralysed
And all you can do is feel

There’s a man, his heart’s so blue, he’s such a gentle man
When he reaches out to me, I hear a distant foghorn
What you don’t see is a giant mouth that makes the tides as he gargles

This man was a real looker, in his day
Now he longs, for the land above him, to just come back to him
If you don’t, believe me, you should spread your arms and dive, dive tonight
This man, his heart's so blue, that it filled the ocean
If you don’t, believe me, you should spread your arms and dive, dive tonight

Joy and Sorrow by Khalil Gibran

Your joy is your sorrow, laughter rises filled with tears
How else can, it be? Deeper sorrow carves into being
More joy you can contain, closer irony you will see

Is not the cup that holds your wine, the very cup, burned in the potter's oven
Is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood, hollowed with knives

When you're joyous just look deep, in your heart and you will find
Truth was that the same joy, was weeping, turning in delight
Holding hands with sorrow, in your bed, next to you, was sleeping joy

Is not the cup that holds your wine, the very cup, burned in the potter's oven
Is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood, hollowed with knives

Engagement

Our engagement
There’s no turning back, there’s no turning back
All I saw a sky a shade of blue
The colour of my childhood bedroom

Our engagement
There’s no turning back, there’s no turning back
All I heard was the quiet murmur, of the Bollin under the tunnel

And then you said, maybe we shouldn’t do this after all
And I said, if things go wrong, at least we’ll have a good song
See, wherever we go, there we will be
Captured in joy, maybe we’re free?

And all you saw was an A330, from Manchester to New York City

Our engagement
There was no turning back, there was no turning back
All I heard was the distant ring
When you called home to say we’re engaged

Our engagement

Blackbird

Mama, there’s a blackbird over my head
Some days he flaps and flutters in the hollows of my chest

Mama, blackbird eats me from within
You can’t see it because the parasol you gave hides it well

Mama, was it you who said we'll all disappear someday?
Will this pain too? You know it well too

Mama, blackbird, leaves me less alone
I might close my eyes and fly with him for a while

Mama, was it you who said we'll all disappear someday?
Will this pain too? You know it well too

Don’t question my pain
Hard, hard to feel as it is
Just hold me in your arms
'Cuz I, I’m not afraid I'll give up

Mama, was it you who said we would all disappear someday?
Will this pain too? You know it well too

Mango Trees

I was half as tall when we flew the nest, yeah, we made a good team
Just the two of us, we felt the pinch, but we ruled the town in our dreams

But you didn’t say goodbye, I wonder why, to this day
Why you couldn’t stay, why we couldn’t talk about it, anyway

Reflections curled up under summer skies am I still in the dream?
Besides our fears, were our hopes, why can’t you see?
And year after year, we drift apart, oh this, ocean’s so deep
And all alone, I couldn’t keep it alive

Love of my sister, now all he’ll ask is how I feel
Do you remember, we used to talk under mango trees

But you made your choices, it’s all the past, anyway
But where do I bury all of my questions everyday?

You see twenty years surrounded by our memories
I’m going over and over again and I still cannot see
The sense in how it turned out and all our possibilities
And all alone, I couldn’t keep it alive
Oh, hope you know, why I just let it die

Promise Me

I know, you’ve got a wonderful future ahead of you
There are many, many wonderful people you’re yet to meet
And I know, I’ll eventually have to let you go
But you should, follow your heart in everything that you do

And I’m sorry, if I made mistakes
But baby, I loved you more than life
And maybe, you still won’t forgive me
But I hope you’ll find find relentless joy

I know, you’ve got a wonderful future ahead of you
Sometimes, I didn’t know the best approach

And I may not have been able to see what I should've seen
And I could not reach your heart 'cause it was so broken

And I wish I could have heard what I didn’t hear
But I'm lucky that you've grown so well

And maybe you still won't forgive me

But I hope you'll find relentless joy

But just promise me, you'll always take care of yourself

And just promise me, you'll always follow your happiness

And just promise me, you will never lose faith in true love

Migrant

Even marmosets arrived in Rio when forest had fallen
When the uncertain is safer, there's hope is a dinghy of rubber

Like roses wilted over seams of boats, they’re just like us
From places often lost in maps, they’re just like us

You see their homes were burnt
In light of dawn they look like us

Hope in long gone brothers, hope in depths of this ocean
On the shore of nightmare and dream, baby drowned, father tripped, but not forgotten

With a phone, a family photo to their name, they’re just like us
Hoping someday they’ll come back home, they’re just like us

You see their homes were burnt
In light of dawn they look like us

Orcas

All alone, you wait for me, watching orcas in the sea
I arrive with pop philosophies, the weather, oh, how you’ve been?

You reach for my hand, all I do is draw circles in the sand

You wish we were orcas in the sea 
Wish I could erase all of our memories
Then maybe you will, maybe you will
Set yourself free

Sun behind the cypress trees, drawing maps of our worlds to be
You live like no tomorrow, but I live like no yesterday, oh, how California of me

I’m still searching for the someone, you seem to find in me

You wish we were orcas in the sea 
Wish I could erase all of our memories
Then maybe you will, maybe you will
Set yourself free 

Reprieve

When will we come out of this water?
When will we come to make peace with our shadows?
Did we forget we came from our mothers?
Did we forget we’ll turn into the same dust?

In this reprieve washed ashore
Can we see our hearts beat the same blood?
In this reprieve,

We’ll climb this mountain
That’s where we will find joy
If I ever stumble in the rain
Will you tickle me till I cry?

How will we find our way through the forest?
If you have the chalk, will you mark the trees?
When we fill our hearts with boundless joy,
Can we feel the sorrow that he feels?
In this reprieve,

We’ll climb this mountain
That’s where we will find joy
If I ever stumble in the rain
Will you tickle me till I cry?

You Know

If I knew I’d tell you what would make me happy
Sometimes these reasons are larger than me
When you can’t tell what is going on, ‘cuz I can’t seem to let you in

And you know that I will take my time to come back out of this
And you know that I will take my time to bring the best out in me
And I want to thank you for waiting patiently by my side

30 Rock marathons, I still feel empty
Triple shot, a sunny walk, won’t set me free
But you’re around, you can make it stop, get me in the car, out of this town

And you know that I will take my time to come back out of this
And you know that I will take my time to bring the best out in me
And I want to thank you for waiting patiently by my side